An Introduction

Taking into account our nation's current economic climate, I only saw it fitting to put my waistline in a recession as well.

Here's the scoop: I am 23 years old and I have always been overweight. I have spent a lifetime obsessing about weight, but to the point where it has inhibited progress instead of inspiring it. I used to only think overweight people like me obsessed about weight, but with a sex and skin crazed society where Bones aren't only popular on TV because it's a show, I have learned that skinny people obsess about weight too. It seems like almost everyone these days has an "inner fat girl" regardless of what the scale says. Taking this into consideration, this blog is here to relay my past experiences and to focus on new, healthy changes I am making to hopefully eradicate my weight worries for good. The goal is to get to the point where I no longer need to obsess about my size, but just focus on being fit in mind and body. This is something everyone, either fat or skinny, can relate to. Isn't it everyone's dream to not have to think about making the right choices regarding your body, but to make them automatically and feel good about it?

Weight is not just a physical entity. It's also a mindset that encompasses our varying degrees of self-perception and self-esteem. As is such, body size is an emotional and intimate topic that transgresses the finite measurement of weight. Over the course of this blog, I will recapitulate stories from my life where the idea of weight or self-consciousness played a main role. This serves to not only help me trace back the origin of some of my personal emotional nuances, but to also help you the reader understand where unhealthy mindsets can start and how you can change how you act toward yourself and others in similar situations.

As a warning, this blog isn't going to be "pretty". A big part of change is understanding where we've been. In the last 23 years, I have resorted to some not so healthy, for lack of better words "scary" tactics in order to make the scale. It is my hope that you the reader can learn from these mistakes, or if you too have made them, find solace in the fact that you aren't the only one.

So here the saga begins. Herein lies the story of an overweight girl, what it was like to grow up overweight, the emotions, what tactics she used, the family around her, the successes, the trials, the tribulations, and now, the change.